Wednesday, January 6, 2010

First Weigh In This Morning... A Real Shocker!

This morning I assembled my new physician's scale and after a bit of adjusting I was able to weigh myself.

My last weigh in was at my last physical... I clocked in at 385 lbs. I figured I gained some weight since then because I quit smoking two years ago (pat on the back) and have been subtituting food for tobacco.

Well the new number shocked the hell of out me. All this time I was rationalizing that my weight had to be under 400 lbs. Don't ask me how my mind came to that thumbnail conclusion. Man was I off. My current weight is 432 lbs. When I saw that number on the scale I felt a wave of adrenalin come over my body. Like the feeling you get when you make a mistake at work or realize you forgot something important. It was not a good feeling at all.

I feel absolutely huge today. Like a huge floating blimp. But I have to get over that and focus on what needs to be done now. My wife is supportive.. she said "well, now you know what you have to do... look at it as a first step to reaching your goal of 220 lbs.. be positive about it." She is so great! I'm debating whether to tell my kids. They are very interested in my progress but unfortunately I feel embarrased to tell them that they have a Dad who weighs so much.

I face a great challenge. I must lose 212 lbs.... nearly half my body weight. No "ifs" "ands" or "buts". This is an absolute. I must reduce my size. It's a two year project and I have a good start on it.

Thanks to everyone who has posted their support comments over the past few days. It really helps to get to know people who are going through the same challenges.



  1. Welcome and thanks for stopping by my blog! You can totally do this and I know what it's like to have a giant number to loose. You will feel better after just a week of eating better and exercising. If you need some inspiration from someone else who has lost over half his body weight visit Sean's blog
    if you haven't already. Best of luck! I'm cheering you on!

  2. I hate that adrenalin feeling when it's bad, but the scale could have read 450 or 475. You're on the right side of fixing the problem now. Try to stay positive. It means 2 or 3 more weeks, but you'll do it -- I know you will!

    I'm right there with you.

  3. Tina.. thanks for the support.

    Dcapo35... thanks for being there. Let's do it.

  4. Hey! I noticed you came by my blog (didijusteatthatoutloud) and I wanted to stop by and welcome you into the fold. WL bloggers are the best for information, support, and belief that you can do this - especially when you think you can't.

    I look forward to journeying with you!

  5. Well, the important thing to remember is that you're not going to lose 200+ lbs in a day, week or month. You've got to string good days together, good weeks, good months. But time has a funny way of scooting by, so just keep that nose to the grindstone and get after it.

    I'm rooting for ya.

  6. Thanks Guys.. Feeling really good about it. I hope that documenting this will help others like reading about others has helped me prepare.


  7. I was just where you are (431 lbs) on May 25, 2009. So I know that feeling of holy sh*t what happened. I am now down to 351 lbs as of today. Just take it one day at a time and all will be well.

    Good luck


  8. Thanks Gary. Added your blog to my follow list and will be sure to check in


  9. Like Jack said, don't concentrate so much on the total you want to lose. Just take one day at a time, string a few good days together, then a couple of weeks, then a few'll get there!