An Awakening... 14 Months Later

Its been 14 months and a lot has happened during this time. As far as my weight... I'm back up to 434 lbs as of yesterday.  But the good news is that I've recommitted myself to my health. I began a controlled program thanks to a family member who has helped me re-sync my brain. I'll be eating 2300 calls per day to start with a 40P/30C/30F breakout. Using mynetdiary.com is great for tracking and managing daily food consumption.

I still do not drink diet drinks or eat fake sweeteners. I'm proud of this change that I have maintained. I've had fast food on occasion but no where near the extent prior to Jan 2010.

Reading some of my posts from when I started this blog has been helpful. I'll be weighing myself everyday and will be reporting here periodically. The good news is that I'm still alive and I have the ability to change my life.

Wish me luck!

ETL

I'm Back.. 419

It's been awhile. Yes, I fell off the wagon but my teenage son and wife woke me up again a few days ago. I weighed myself for the first time in months... suprisingly I gained only 8 pounds from my low point of 411. Could have been worse I guess. Now I need to get back to where I was as first goal.. 411. They on with the journey again to my goal weight.

I can say that two of my goals I have kept... no fast food and no diet drinks or artificial sweetners. I gained the 8 back because I haven't been counting calories and have been eating some sweets here and there. These are the first two things I will fix... taking it one step at a time.

Good news is.. I'M BACK!

ETL

A New Day!

Thanks for all the great comments and feedback. It's really cool to that people show so much support.

I had a deep discussion with my wife about my recent struggles. She was so supportive and helped vent out all that I had bottled up. Thanks Sweet Heart!

I'm happy to say that these past few days have been very positive for me. I've stopped night eating and I'm feeling more positive about what's ahead of me.

Yesterday I took my kids to a Major League baseball game.. there were many temptations around. But... I only had a sandwich, with some fries... and two bottles of water (at $5 per bottle). There seemed to be dozens of varities of foods available. As you would guess I thought about eating many times throughout the game but I stayed in my seat to avoided temptations. I also thought about the next time I go to a game having more room in the seat (it was a little tight). It was a great, memorable day.

This next week I will be focusing on getting back to counting calories and walking.

ETL

How Do I Get Back On Track?

I don't know where to start. I'm back to feeling out of control. I was doing so well for the first 4 months.. then something happened. Maybe I was distracted by baseball season which I love so much. Maybe by my family whom I love so much. I don't know what caused me to fall of the train but I want to get back on it fast. I have to be honest... I am sneaking a snacks here and there. Things I shouldn't eat. My wife is going to read this and be disappointed in me. Sorry Hun.

I can't even be trusted to go to the food store by myself because I am tempted to buy food to eat on the way home. I went this weekend to pick up stuff to make Fajitas and saw Golden Oreo Double Stuff cookies on a sale rack. I bought them. Got them in the car. Debated whether I should eat them or throw them away. I ended up opening them. I ate one cookie, then another and as I went to grab the third I stopped myself. I felt disgusting. I stopped the car near a garbage can and threw them out. I felt good to do that but soon after I had the urge to stop for something else. It never ends.

Good news though.. The last two nights I haven't had any food after dinner.. no late night eating.

This post is my first step at having a heart to heart with myself about my size and situation. I need to become smaller and healthier. Just because I stopped eating fast food doesn't mean I've really accomplished much. I need to lose 200 pounds and I need to do it as soon as possible.

Simple Goals:

1. Be honest with myself
2. Think more often about why I want to lose weight
3. Get back to tracking calories
4. Start walking every day.

ETL

Still Here. Still Big. Still Trying

Summer has taken it's toll on my quest to become a thin person. For the few months I haven't counted calories. I've eaten after dinner (late night). These are two deadly sins for a person who is trying to shed fat. I've gained back 8 pounds and feel terrible about it.

On the positive side.. still haven't had any fast food or diet soda. But I'm not proud of my lack of discipline. So I began counting calories again as a first step. I will also make an effort to walk more each day. One step at a time... have to get back on track.

ETL

Getting Back To Where I Was

Thanks for all the comments and support. Things are going well. I lost 3 pounds this week. 2 more pounds and I'll be back to my low point. Still a long way to go but I feel like I've got things back under control. It's a daily grind. Activity level is higher due to coaching baseball. Last week I wore pedometer and discovered I walked nearly 5,000 steps. That was after coaching one game and one practice in the same day. Thanks to Jimmy Lamb for turning me onto the 10,000 step program. I'll report back as often as I can. With both boys playing travel baseball this summer life is hectic and time is sparse.

Thanks again for the continued support.

ETL

Still Here and Still Fighting

Not going to give up. Summer activities make it hard to find time to post here. Haven't lost but haven't gained either. Have to admit that I've lost the edge, the zeal I had when I started. I'm trying to get it back. Still no diet drinks or fake sweeteners, no fast food. I've curbed the late night snacks. Going to make a commitment to count cals and focus on 1500 per day for the next week. Take it day by day. It's helpful to go back and read some of my initial posts.

Thanks to all of you for your supportive comments. I'm on the train, just driving a bit slow right now.

ETL

I'm Still Here... I Need A Push!

Have I lost my way on my quest to become healthier? No.
Have I stopped being responsible about my food choices? No.
Have I stopped thinking about losing weight? No.
Have I lost more weight since my last weigh in? No.

I was gung ho the first two months. Then I hit my weight loss hit a wall and at the same time I became distracted by live activities. I can't make excuses though I have to get back to "gung ho" status. Honestly, I've had a few unauthorized snacks here and there but my weight is currently at 409 lbs which is where I was a few weeks ago... and the lowest I've been since I started the journey.

I think about it everyday and I have not had any fast food, diet drinks or free style binges at all. But.. I have to get back to daily recording of calories and exercising. I don't want to spin back up to where I was. I want to go down. I want to be thin. This is the hard time I guess. Getting the second wind. I don't want to fail and I don't want status quo. I want to wear size 36 pants again.

ETL